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Tue Dec 9, 2008, 12:06 PM

So I've done it. I've gotten into the University of Maryland, and I'm going back to college. Gonna go do the whole stupid thing again. I have orientation tomorrow. *dies*
I just cannot believe I'm doing this to myself again. I mean, I have to go to college, I have the money, so I should go, especially with the current economy being what it is. It's just, I fucking hate school. Fucking hate it. I don't like learning about shit I'm not interested in, I have no desire to join the drunken hordes of college culture, and I hate being tied down to any one place. I always get like that. I feel trapped by my job and school. I like the feeling that I can just say, "Fuck this, I'm going to Wales." But I can't.
Right now I'm taking the math placement exam, and I don't know ANYTHING. They are going to think I am a fucking moron. Math makes me feel so stupid--this test drove me to tears for the first time in months. I hate feeling dumb.
The thing is, I am only going back to school because I have no idea what else to do. That is the lamest reason, but it's the only one I can come up with.
I dropped out of school last year because I wasn't enjoying myself. I was bored, I was lonely, and I was sick of the people. I was getting straight A's, but I still hated it.
My true problem with the whole college thing is that it traps you. It locks you into place for four years--you're forced to stay in the same place physically and emotionally, and I hate that.
Fuck, I can't believe this.
Okay, that's all. Carry on.

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~carolinetheamazing Dec 9, 2008, 1:45:27 PM

Look on the bright side- at least at UMD, you're closer to your friends and you can get out more, and the campus is larger, so there's more stuff to do that doesn't involve drunk frat boys.

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~rbrtpendragon Dec 9, 2008, 10:34:02 PM

you think you're stuck? seriously?WAKE UP! you're submitting to a minor evil, in an attempt to better yourself. do you think anyone likes to learn about stuff they don't find interesting? no... but we do it, so we can learn what does interest us... like film-making, photography, or veterinary medicine. at least you have the chance to go to school... some of us don't have that luxury... like me. i have car payments, car insurance, rent, and gas... and those are the least of the reasons i can't go.

you're not a fool aisha, so do yourself a huge favor; STOP ACTING LIKE ONE! STICK WITH IT FOR 4 YEARS, GET IT OVER WITH, AND FUCKING CALL ME WHEN YOU GET DOWN AND NEED TO TALK!!

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a true friend is one you trust to hold a knife to your throat, and do the right thing, whether that means killing you, or letting you live.

~DarkNite109 Dec 10, 2008, 12:30:29 PM

Okay, I will, provided you learn to spell my name. Lol.

~rbrtpendragon Dec 10, 2008, 4:21:08 PM

aysha? if it's not one of those, then i'm lost... i keep trying to spell it like aisha clan clan, of the proud ktarl ktarl empire. outlaw star. we must watch together sometime...

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a true friend is one you trust to hold a knife to your throat, and do the right thing, whether that means killing you, or letting you live.

~DarkNite109 Dec 10, 2008, 5:47:41 PM

Yeah, that's right. You got it.

~rbrtpendragon Dec 11, 2008, 4:05:45 PM

cool... and arbor day is totally baout getting laid... just outside, instead of inside. do it under an arbor, see?

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a true friend is one you trust to hold a knife to your throat, and do the right thing, whether that means killing you, or letting you live.

~DarkNite109 Dec 12, 2008, 6:45:23 PM

Yeah, I guess. That quote's from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, actually.

~rbrtpendragon Dec 19, 2008, 5:32:31 PM

cool. i met joss whedon's cousin at work

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a true friend is one you trust to hold a knife to your throat, and do the right thing, whether that means killing you, or letting you live.